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Is it okay to romanticize my lifestyle?

Hi people!
Yesterday , the mood was minus 100 degrees cold . One must never underestimate the benefit of a power nap. You wake up as a slightly better oriented person. 
Time , sleep and food solves most things , And the things these can't solve , you have to solve yourself.


So , this morning ( Rainy and cosy) I wake up to amazing weather and alternating personality. Only focus today was to reach the restroom as soon as possible. Weak bladders are a curse, and I’ll write an emotional piece about it one day.

For once , I wanted to hurry up , get done with plans and the very next moment slow down and live in the moment.

This reminds me of my toddler days. Since the day of my birth , I always wanted to hurry up on things that resulted in a clumsier adult version of mine. My mom divided equal amount of Maggi between us , sisters . I was the one , who would hurry up , gulp as much as I could whereas my sister would savour the noodles with gravy in right amount . Result? I would finish my part in 2 minutes and keep staring at her as she enjoyed hers begging for some more.

I don't know if its the weather that makes me think all this or a calmer , well rested mind but from today onwards I want to wake up late for a few days and have no plans.Easier said than done for a hush mind like mine which begins to overthink and creates problems in head which don't even exist. I want to open my eyes and stay there for a bit, doing nothing.
I want to feel enough even when I don’t have Schedule knocking at my mind’s door. For some time now , I want a life with this new rule. 

I want a life where work is a synonym for giving. An extension of me reaching out and out to the world to heal.
There are insects flying in my stomach and a few question marks floating in my head.

 Is it okay if stop dreaming about big  brands and the sources of income for a while and  find my greatest comfort in the breathe of memories?


Because as time goes on we understand,
What lasts lasts , what doesn't doesn't

Is it okay if I just want to slow down without having to justify “why”?

 Is it okay if I want to smile at strangers and lighten their mood?
Happy endings are much like comfort food – on a bad day, it’s the only thing that can make you feel better. Happiness, even vicarious happiness, offers us an escape from troubled times.
Is it okay if I am okay with my okay ?
Is it okay if I slow down a little and meet few once-in-a-lifetime kind of people I treasure?

I am standing tall in my vulnerability.I am claiming the space that is already mine, all mine.

Nothingness feel relevant and timely, because we as a generation are used to romanticizing our own problems!
So far so much ...

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