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Passing Exam after Hattrick of Failures

Hey people

I cleared my RCEM intermediate /SAQ exam.

Good 10 days late in sharing the blog. It took me some time to put my mind together to jot down this post.

The number of thoughts in words couldnt sync so it took a while. I jot down my failures and successes in this blog to optimise my mood. 
I did not celebrate my success. Honestly, it was more of relief than happiness.

I am immensely thankful to the almighty for my failures, as they helped me optimize my lifestyle. 

November 2020 was the first time I failed an exam in 27 years of my life despite preparing well.I failed with a handful of marks. It took me good time to digest it. I still cut a cake to celebrate it.
That was the first time I took a while and reviewed my life. I took a while to wait and blame the thing that caused my failure, I could see my anxiety tall and stout. I worked on controlling my exam anxiety. 

March 2021 , I failed again. this time it was the exam , it was pretty tough for average student like me. I didn't find anybody to blame, I let it go.

 Later , my health took a roller coaster making me realize that I have another thing to take care of. I took time off to work on my health , left things that I thought would hamper my health, chose things that made me feel better.
During the same time I realized my finances were horrible. What would I do with the all the degrees if I could not manage my finances? I took time off understood finances about saving money about active and passive income.

September 2021
I had prepared well for my exam. Channelised my energy well. There was nothing according to me that was inappropriate.I failed again with handful of marks. It broke my heart. I sat down with myself trying to find out what went wrong. It was my attention span or rather impulsive nature.

The next three months more than learning new things I focused on improving my attention span and impulsivity. This helped me in controlling my impulse. I started observing that my impulse began to come under my control. I could control my anger well.
The mindfulness I had about my money started seeping into my day-to-day decisions. I became more aware of my strengths and shortcomings and optimized them accordingly. 
The hattrick of failures over 12 months taught me much more than the streaks of successes could over 2 decades could.

March 2022 when I got my results , it neither created excitement nor did it cause fear. I just stayed neutral like it was any other day of my life , by then I came to realize there where many more things that have to be fixed and cleared. Lets figure out one at a time.

On a lighter note, my score in 2022 was less than my score in 2020. Funny how nature wanted me to know certain things before I moved to the next level.

So here I am today, not celebrating it . Just taking it as any other day.
So far so much

 

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