DR. WAJEEHA ISSUES

Hey all ,  In your twenties you're expected to be super energetic, in best of your health form. Have the best immunity. Expectations and reality are two different things,never the same.  At twenty six , having fallen sick thrice with bacterial and viral infections despite enough rest in three months. Having dealt with enough panic attacks , enough low mood days, you questions your own sanity. Question your physical ability to continue your passion, your daily activities. When you're at your physical and emotional low , you don't know what is dominating what.  Living in a sick body at any point of life is not easy . You don't know how you would wake up next day , in mental fatigue or Physical exhaustion.  So far so much.

Hey all! Burnout is  you run when all you need to do is Walk. Work is like a rubber ball, drop it and it will bounce back today or tomorrow. It doesn't have emotions. Health and spirit are like glass, you drop them , you have permanent damage.Theyll never be the same again. First hand experience. Burnout is when we listen to others but not our body. when we make time for others but not ourselves. We outperform ourselves but not in a good way. Testing yourself to an extent that you break yourself down is not a good idea. You start feeling burdened and frustrated over every little thing. we're all exhausted. slow down today. Allow yourself to rest, breathe and restart again! This is a seedlings of new life. we need to silence our mind. one meeds to stop chasing and pause. So far so much.

Hey all,   The thing with life is it's hardly ever monotonous. It gives you jerks if you think it's monotonous.  This Bakrid , all I wanted to do is pray , go do my job of contributing to save lifes , come back home , have some tasty food and sleep. Well , this is what I've been doing for past 3 years.  A day before Eid , I woke up all tired , with every part of my body hurting like it never did. I thought I had crossed my physical capacity and that could be the reason. I happened to check my temperature, Damn 100F . I thought to wait till next day , I didn't want to see the number 100 on the thermometer so I gulped paracetamol beforehand and headed to work. My friend asked me to go home and rest. But all I wanted to do is work, because I thought it would sound like an excuse I was making to get an off on Eid . Half way down the shift, I started having chills in the PPE ... I didn't dare to check the temperature, I quietly gulped another paracetamol and continued wo...

Hey all How are you? Slept last night peaceful? Had a good meal? You're one of the luckiest being on planet earth. So blessed?! But How ?! Yes , I envy people who have peace of mind. People who can sleep well at night. You don't understand what a blessing you carry.  It's important to have good physical health to be mentally fit they say... I am having my baby steps towards it. Trust me I am going to break bones if this is a just shitty quote ... I swear! See you after attaining some peace of mind. So far so much.

Hey all Being a leader , is a new place to be . Wearing new pair of shoes you make yourself vulnerable to shoe bites which all our parents say we will get used to once time passes by.  To have somebody listen to your struggles all day is a blessing. To have somebody to listen to your struggles EVERYDAY is too much to ask for. Because you know nobody is willing to listen. Nobody got time. Nobody got time to listen to the minute hassles , fights , pleasures , troubles , escapades . It's practically not possible in the year 2020.  You don't want to be talking also because you don't want them to judge you because it's your own journey. You want to share not more than a piece to seek an advise.  My way of dealing has changed to be talking about them to the person who gives it to me everyday. (The Almighty) .This will prolly continue till he finds me a therapist!  So far so much!

Hey all,  It's always a good day to learn to save lifes. It's even better to have deep conversation with healers, wounded healers. I was in quarantine because of high titres of positivity (COVID 19) . I happened to discuss a topic with now an ex team member.  I was in full energy after a long time . She told me how much she missed working with me. I was trying to be nice and say your new leader is also great, all you need is time. I was trying my best to be diplomatic and not say anything otherwise because you know one tends to speak nice of you if they get attached to you.  But her change in attitude towards work scared me a little. She went on to say ," I miss working with you ... It was like learning new procedures without pressure, it was like I had no leader but a team member who would work with me, I felt energetic at the end of the shift. But now I don't feel like going to work, work seems stressful . All I want to do is complete documents and shift the patient ...

Hey all, To pose dignified calm when you want to break bones , shout at your level best , cry your heart out is the toughest thing to do. I specially now have high regards for anyone who does so. There are days when you're mad as a hatter on shift. All you want to do is break somebodys bones without being charged for it for them asking incessantly of things you can't help.  Sometimes you wonder if all this is what you want from life.  You wonder if you had studied med school to be managing such bombastic shit. You wonder if this is worth dying young... Pizza is atleast tasty! You wonder if yelling like a lunatic lady  in a sophisticated place worth the deal. But if you think of a better bigger picture , if you can save more life , provide better quality care, it's all worth it.  My mental health... Well , it's high time almighty finds me a therapist!  So far so much!

Hey all , Hope life is treating you well . It takes guts to read my blogs . You're a warrior already! Working in a team as a team leader for a month I was startled with the observations I would make everyday. Everyone is different and caught in their ownself that their reaction to same thing presented at same place everyday is different.  I had the junior most resident who was doing well everyday . This one fine day, ER was a hot air balloon filled with pressured air , he had this one case that got settled in one to two hours (too much as it was already a settled case by a previous team) I held my calm as it was still manageable. 4 hours later I gave him a case to handle , he asked me for some more time as he wanted to settle down a issue from the previous case.  You cannot ask for some more time! You HAVE to settle this case ! I FIRMLY answered which again I had settled with respect to investigation, and initial management. He understood what I meant. He quietly took up the c...